the complications ,, makes me ponder deeply .

WEDNESDAY - 06 JUNE 2007
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had a nice rest after chalet yest .
supposed to be fun .
somehow ,,
i just wasn't really very happy .
sighs .
life ,, life .
it just seem so complicating yea ?
at times you really feel that life is beautiful .
at other times you doubt so .
or rather shd i say just how complex can a human's mind be ?often ,, we'd take things for granted .
only realising it when you lose it .
some would strive to want it back again .
however ,, some just let it walk away .
are you the kind who wud give up so easily ?

for me ,, i'd cherish everything i have .
however at times ,,
i just ask myself .
am i asking for too much at times ?
perhaps i've had enough of wad i shd get
yet i still ask for more ?
i really wonder .
or is it self deceiveing ?
to keep me away from those tormenting thoughts .
i just detest my personality at times .
one who prefers initiative over asking .
thats just me and i seriously wonder WHY ?

time is passing by so fast .
i could hardly catch up .
there's no much time for me to make use of alr .
whatever it is ,,
i'm trying my very best to make sure my efforts pay off .
encouraging myself by telling myself
i can definitely do it ! i could acheive what i want !
thinking back ,, is that considered as encouraging ??
or just trying to preserve that faith in myself ??
in the psychological point of view ,,
that shd be seen as self hypnotism .
guess its not a bad way to encourage yourself
and allow yourself to work even harder yeas ?

alrights . felt better after letting the words out .
thou' without the clear meanings .
wads impt is just the main point isn't it ?

so ,, ciaos peeps !

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