i'm a fuckin'MESS!

somehow i think that i'm in a mess .
life , everything . its all a mess .
why are some things so hard for me .
all i ever wanted was simplicity .
why do i still fail time n again ,,
when i've put in my best effort .
in whatever i do ,,
whatever issues .
be it just work or life .
nothing ever seems to go right .
when i believe and trust that
everything will change for the better .
it always seems to just bring greater disappointment .
all these just makes me think ,,
whats the use of giving a 100%
when u dun even get back the least u deserve ?
i just feel so damn lost .
what should or can i do now ?
should i still preserve the faith i always had ?

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