my 100th post ;; L-O-V-E .

firstly ,, sorry for the lack of updates .
havent been in the mood to blog & nothing much in particular to blog 'bout .
this is my first hundred post & i'll make it as interesting as possible .

L-O-V-E : a priceless commodity , it is the only thing you can give away and still keep .

a casual conversation i had with chalmers yest that left me pondering .
seriously what this special word is all about .
well ,, due to our difference in perspective towards it .
to me ,, it has always been a wonderful thing in all aspects .
when i fail i never lose faith in it for i always think that the failures are just lessons and life experiences .
maybe God wants us to meet a few wrong person before we meet the right one so that when we finally meet the right one we'll know how to be grateful .
to stay optimistic , i always thought that its the best solution .
its never fair when it comes to LOVE ,, when has it ever been ?
with both parties one is bound to give more & the other , take more .
it isn't right to bear a grudge about it .
love someone unconditionally , without expecting anything in return .
to just give , that takes courage because we don't want to fall on our faces or leave ourselves open to hurt .
what i always believe in which somehow may not seem appealing to all .
sometimes when you think its all about making sacrifices be it feeling unhappy over it .
does it even spell the word and its true meaning ?
i assume it does till some moments when i'd stop and think - no conclusion .
other than thinking LOVE is all so beautiful .
i could find no reason to disagree totally with my dear fren that the ugly side is indeed abhorrent .
few interesting remarks he made .
back to the give & take issue .
it seems that due to that r/s has become one sided .
when one gives it all & the other takes it all .
when compromising no longer works , no more initiative taken .
thats when it becomes one sided ? when a r/s beomes stale ?
&when are you gna decide you've taken enough of rubbish before you puke it all out ?
(chalmers , i dunno if i shd laugh or frown at this sentence .)
it all make sense too , only till the extend when you know nothing can be done to salvage thats when you'll feel like dumping it all .
i'm not grouped under that anw .
i don't give up no matter how heartwrenching all the heart matters can lead to unless there's a reason good enough to .
well ,, this four letter word makes one soo weird too .
you try to take everything in stride .
play the role of complying to the other party .
stand aside craving for attention .
hoped & pray for things to turn out in ur way (at least for once) .
thinking tt wud bring happiness ? maybe ,but definitely not to urself .
even thou' you get tired of all these it still doesn't stop you from continuing .
silly silly silly . yet exist .
BOO .
W-H-Y ? !
because you just think LOVE is how it shd be in ur own views .
JUST BECAUSE SOMEONE DOESN'T LOVE YOU IN THE WAY YOU WNA THEM TO , DOESN'T MEAN THEY DON'T LOVE YOU WITH ALL THEY HAVE .
- & it applies to all kinds of LOVE , but how true is that ?

[HAPPY NINE MTHS TO CINDY & WESLEY . ILOVEYOU BABY .]

Love is , above all else , the gift of oneself .

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BAD DAY !

it has been such a bloody bad day !

i'm so piss and irritated that if being provoke i'd bite off your ear .

blah . i dunno why and there's nothing much to elaborate on either .

i'm just in such an atrocious mood that i lose my temper so so so easily .

BAH !

whatever ,, just post some of the pics taken at lihao's bbq last night .

some pple are just so bastard , seriously no wonder everyone hates you asshole .

you make me feel so disgusted too so stop acting like , ' OH ! I'm THE BEST IN THE WHOLE WORLD ! '

SHOO OFF MAN !

the flour men .

birthday boy , lihao .

yuan lin .

glenn .

some kinda disgusting prata dough made by them to attack one another .

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO LIHAO !

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15NOV-GRADUATION ((:

CLASS 4E6'07 - THE LAST CLASS PHOTO : it shall be remembered in our <3

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finally it was the graduation lunch , our prom yesterday .
it was held at York Hotel which was quite a nice place .
my mood then , i couldn't describe .
i felt happy and upset at the same time .
haas .
i know i can't bear to see the whole event come to an end and part with those whom have played very important roles and touch my life before .
especially when the principal and vice principal made their speech .
for an instance tears filled my eyes .
its just such a natural feeling , sadness at that moment .
you know they have all been nice people and all the memorable moments that come flashing back .
you know you will never have the same experience ever again .
yeas , i'm that kinda very emotional person so pardon me .
it'll all be remembered , deep in my heart .
there are just so many teachers that i'd like to thank .
all the teachers that have taught me .
A BIG THANK YOU to all of you .
you're all being LOVED .
& here , i wish all of you including my friends all the best in life !
i'm gna MISS YOU ALL !

well ,, i've compiled all the pics into a slideshow .
enjoy viewing ! ((:

& this next half of the post is for my baby ((:
a BIGGIEE THANKYOU to you too rite baby ?
LOLS .
you actually did bought it especially for my prom huhs ?
so sorry i didn't use it cos i've alr bought the clutch !
but nvm , it was a very pleasant surprise .
i love it & i love you darling ! XD
adding on to my GUESS collection .
HAAS . ((:

[ the GUESS bag baby bought for me ((: ]

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A DAY WITH SOEUR ! ((:

SHOPPING SHOPPING SHOPPING !
with my SOEUR today !
its a pity the honeybuns couldn't get together for this shopping spree .
ed is just so so busy .
nahmind ,, we'll meet up soon . ((:
HAHAS !
i'm just soo happy today with all my shopping .
i got what i wanted as planned and today's shopping was real fast .
guess thats the result when you have planned out where to go and what to get .
make me believes that planning beforehand helps and of course with that little luck .
i was lucky to get all the stuffs in one shop . XD
too bad i couldn't find the earrings i wanted .
& A.E is too busy to make a customised pair for me . )):
nahmind ,, i'll keep it simple like ed says .
man & i bought a really lovely dress today & we shared the price .
so we'll share the dress as we both love it ! haas .
its just nice to shop with ur goody soeur & you can even share the shopping costs .
LOLS .
am i rite chao sen ? XD
rmb to tell me when you're free to collect our shopping & i could do lunch with ya at ur sch .

well ,, we also 'witness' this really unpleasant incident while we were at the foodcourt today .
i really dunno whats wrong with some adults . mind you its an ADULT !
there was this family who were sitted at the table nxt to us .
there's this two female adults who were probably in their mid twenties ?
who wore fake eyelashes ,, thick makeup n probably think they look like barbie dolls or wadeva and they were like typical 'lao lians' .
i've no prejudice against that but what we found it irksome was the way she behaved towards an old lady .
as there was not enough seats at her table , she took a chair and placed it at one end of the table .
she was then sitted in the middle of the walkway which was a really small path for people to move about .
the fact is she is really inconsiderate by doing so .
so ,, when this old lady who was a cleaner asked her to sit properly so that she could pass thru .
she just stared at her as if wanting to pick a fight and told her in a rude manner ,,
'this is just the way to sit wad , say until like that . '
OH MY !
man & i was so disgusted by her actions .
how can you treat a poor old lady who still has to come out to earn a living as a cleaner in this way ? she doesn't owe you anything !
worst of all , the young lady's parents & her son (i suppose) was with her .
how could her parents tolerate such behaviour being elderly themselves .
don't they feel ashamed of their daughter .
if i were her parents i'd hv given her one tight slap man .
no , i wouldn't even allow my kids to grow up to be so ill mannered & unfeeling .
and this is definitely a bad live example for her son .
imagine her son would be treating her in the same way when she's old and helpless .
no surprise . that'll probably be retribution . karma .

setting examples for children are really important .
just like the other day while i was working as a relief teacher at a student care centre .
young kids nowadays are getting wittier & much more mischievous .
at pri sch levels they alr act like hoodlums and use expletives .
ganging up to bully the weaklings .
as we grow older and get in contact with the outside world .
when we come across certain issues , we'd reflect on ourselves too .
and at many times i'd finally realise why mummy used to be so strict when we were young .
it really helps & i actually felt glad thinking back .

hopefully there'll be less freaks with such apathetic behaviour around .
& more of those who'd show love & respect towards those who deserves it .

Do not do unto others as you would that they should do unto you.
Their tastes may not be the same.
-George Bernard Shaw

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it matters no more ,,

this is one movie which i'd recommend .
i dunno bout others but i love this movie .
for every show ,, there's bound to be learning points .
and for this movie it'd be kinship or to be more precise ,,
the relationship between a father & a daughter .
there's this saying that no parents wouldn't love their flesh and blood .
true . but for minority i guess it isn't so .
perhaps replace the parents with parent instead .
i don't mean single parent family but even complete families .
the many living examples in life that i've seen .
well ,, wad exactly is familial bond & love bout ?
in this movie ,, it was bout a self centered guy who thinks that the earth rotates because of him whom got reunited with his daughter which he don't even know existed .
the process by which he grew to recognised and love his daughter was indeed heartwarming .
an egocentric guy who in the end became selfless .
incredible for wad kinship could result to isn't it .
for the most gladdening part would be when Joe actually told his daughter this ,,
" you're the best thing that has ever happened to me "
how nice & sweet . ((:

when was the last time ur dad actually picked you up and told you how dear you're to him .
telling you ' i love you sweetheart '
giving you a goodnight kiss ?

for these ,, i could hardly remember .
it seems like some pleasant yet heart pricking memories .
i've always think that the loss is nothing to me .
something which i could do away with that i could deal with in a nonchalant manner .
i do hope for things to be in that way thou .
i do not wish to take umbrage at the negligence of discharging one's responsibilities .
hatred is a definite no no to me now .
its just too heavy a burden for the heart to hold .
your ego makes it unbearable even to me .
nothing can be compared to it i suppose .
we can be within a breath's distance but it definitely seems like worlds apart .
i make the happenings in my daily lives a lesson learnt .
for the certain events , its definitely a very valuable lesson .
as a minor to you i wouldn't say i'm absolutely capable of discerning right from wrong .
however ,, this time its clear and unambiguous .

well ,, i wouldn't long for the vague past anymore .
whats done can't be undone .
nothing more can accomodate for the pain inflicted on one .
at least i have a future to reconstruct my life .
thats what i'm most looking forward to , my future .
maybe i shd thank the great events that has caused an impact in my life .
thats what made me realised what i truly want in life .
made me more independent on oneself & have a set of own goals to strive hard for .
even without you , i could still be somebody .
not just what i want you to know but anyone else who thinks i'm nothing .

time would reveal , definitely .

Knowledge is essential to conquest;
only according to our ignorance are we helpless.
Thought creates character.
Character can dominate conditions.
Will creates circumstances and environment.

-Anne Besant

an end that marks a new phase ((:

yepps yepps .
the O levels is finally coming to an end .
the last paper will be on the 13 nov .
this's really fast isn't it .
year 2007 is almost ending soon .
just another year is gna be over .
this spells the end of my days in secondary school .
haas .
an ending which too marks a fresh start .
indeed excited and filled with much anticipation abt the next phase of life .
well ,, each phase of life brings its own joy n i do hope it'll be so .

throughout these years i've realised that i've been wasting much precious time on stuffs that benefit me in no ways .
why wouldn't i have spend more time doing things thats more realistic and constuctive ?
blah .
no use whining over this issue any further .
for the new phase , i'd resolute for betterment .
((:

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