speechless .

ALONE .
YES . I JUST WNA BE ALL BY MYSELF !
OKAY !
JUST FECKIN' LEAVE ME ALONE .
I'M JUST SO FINE BEING BY MYSELF .

how cn i just try to act so naturally aft all the nonsense .
its so tiring having to adjust ur mood so quickly .
i dislike it . why shd i .
i dun wish to face you aft every quarrels & hv to act normal &
be naturally happy like nothing happened .
thats so irritating & tiring .
i don't like to fake a smile .
act being enthusiastic when its none of what i feel .
true , i feel controlled by the changes in you .
makes me feel horrified & constraint .
& i hate it ! i can't afford to lose my freedom .
never would i give it up for anything in the world .
i love my own space , i love my own personal life .
i love spending time with others i love
love having time for myself .
i'm all so used to being alone & free .
i don't wna be all tied up . its intolerant .

i appreciate all the nice stuffs you've always told & done for me .
i'm sorry even at your lowest point in life i'm not by you .
if nothing had changed none of us could even be facing any of our lowest point in life .
i just wished to be alone at this pt .
would you mind not making myself seem so inhumane & guilty for all my ignorance to all your requests .
its not like i'm feeling good here &
you wna add on extra burden for me ?

i don't & can't feel anything now .
just feel so drained .
drifting off to slp whenever i lie on bed .
its okay .
i need all this time & space alone now .
i don't need any single soul .
i've been independent enough for the longest time .
its just truly fine for me to be ALONE .
at least i feel best .


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