dissapointment fills .

well well well .
what cn i say ?
time really flies .
its alr december .
one month had just past like this .
wad had i been doing ?
so much had happened .
i had gained & at the same time lose a lot of
once to me , priceless things .
i tot i had my most special lovelies with me .
but ,, POOF !
its all gone now .
well ,, just look at the word , ' LOVELIES '
break it in two , there goes , LOVE LIES .
as pple says , marriage is the beginning of divorce .
i quote , ' LOVE IS THE BEGINNING OF HATRED ' .
no matter what kind of LOVE .
like friendship . special friends to you .

i've just learn how realistic it can be .
i've lost 'em .
or rather decided to dump 'em .
friends who told me tt they'd stood by me thru' thick&thin .
who made me feel so LOVED .
who always make my day when i'm feeling low .
who could always influence my feelings .
who gave me the idea tt YOU'D NV WALK AWAY FROM ME .
now ,, i'm all ALONE .
BACK TO SQUARE ONE .
WHY THE FUCK DID YOU EVEN BOTHER TO LOOK BACK .
JUST WHERE THE FUCK ARE YOU WHEN I NEEDED YOU MOST ?!
YOU'RE STANDING ON SOMEONE ELSE'S SIDE ?
WEREN'T YOU THE ONE WHO SAID ITS OKAY IF THE WHOLE WORLD
DOESN'T TRUST OR SUPPORT YOU AS FRIENDS WOULD ALWAYS STAND BY YOU .
NOW LET ME TELL YOU ,
YOU'VE NO RIGHTS TO SAY SUCH THINGS .
YOU KNOW NOTHING BOUT A FRIEND'S LOVE AT ALL .

thats okay .
i thank God for showing me the truth now .
i hope this is the last time i'd blabber bout this .
why isn't there a function in our mind
whereby we can just press 'DELETE' or 'BRAINWASH' .
i'm not crazy just driven mad by you assholes .

last words to you :

as a true fren i bother to warn and advise you
if you see it as NONSENSE
just bloody FUCK OFF .
don't try to defend both of you anymore .
i'll just dump it all away .
treat it as my luck to 've known you .

I'D LOVE TO SEE YOUR FACES FULL OF REGRETS IN FUTURE
& DON'T JUST FUCKING COME CRYING BACK TO ME .
I'VE HAD ENOUGH OF THIS SHIT !


wes to cindy :
'only i'm true to you .'
'i'll be ur strength,i'll give u hope, keeping ur faith when its gone. '
baby had been nice , patient & sweet all this while .
no matter how i throw my tantrum or gave him the cold shoulder ,
had no time at all for him , showing negligence .
he's still there . i knew it .
i'm feeling bad . even now i'm still busy with my own life .
i promise to try my best for everything to be in place & back to how it was again .
thanks love*

maybe i shd just stop placing frens at such a high position in my heart
if disappointment is all i get .
learn to reciprocate dumb fucks .

i THANK those who had really stayed by me till now .
LOVE* to you sweeties ,, esp my gd fren & sotong girl .
blur & no constructive solutions but always listening to my niam-ings .
LOLS ! hi ! see i'm so true to you . telling you every word frm my heart !
hope u resolved ur troubles soon too !
& girl just send me this superb song i'm gna upload it .
suit these asses fucking loads . HOT&COLD .

does all this marks it's end now ?
does a new phase of life await me ?


___ let me get over it ,, shortest time possible PLS .