first week of sch is coming to an end soon .
its alr thursday .
well ,, as always , once sch resumes , busy life resumes .
sigh . full of projects & presentations .
& i havent done well for my CT .
results of last min work .
but i just wasn't in the right form previously .
& now ? i'm not so sure either .
no matter how i still have to do well for my end of year .

hmm .
so far in the new year .
nothing much had been smooth thou .
i've came to realise so much .
i'm even shock myself that my past assumptions were wrong .
due to that i've changed a lot of decisions for my life then .
but now it seems like i was all wrong .
and how did i feel ? loss . yea ,, just at loss .
i don't even know what exactly is it anymore .
just felt really disappointed & its such a pity .
why didn't it happen earlier .
it could have been different from the current situation now .
i guess its really not meant to be .
sometimes i'd always think heaven's just cracking a joke on me .
it seems unfair & ridiculous , you'd feel frustrated . but ,,
nothing ever really goes your way does it ?

weekends round .
shd i even look forward to it ?
i always did but now ? sigh .
gna take a nap for now .
my eyes are really painful & puffy now .
& i'm totally drained . ):

i'm really glad for truthfulness .
i'm upset with the limit of choices .
time wouldn't heal every single thing under the sun .
i've tried and i know that .
there are always something tt'd be etched on ur mind forever .
if that particular something is so precious ,,
just place it in a little corner of your heart .
i would instead of trying to dump it away .
even for a second ,,
i always long for that happiest moment i had ,,
& it always feels like ages ago to me thou it does not seem to be .
just once more .
can i ?

*LOVES