sometimes i'd just purely wna care & show my concern .
however , would it be appreciated ?

it often leads me to a loss for the various changes in our lives .

i don't ever say i understand someone's issue
even if my situation had been similar .
i only understand the fact that everyone's different emotionally , mentally .
there's no way you could understand one's true feelings .
many a time ,, its not shown . the true .

if you'd allow one a chance to walk into your life ,
& receive all the care & love showered on you .
you may come to see that you're not all by yourself .

afterall .

&its ur choice .

TEACHER CINDY FOR THE DAY !

LOLS !
did relief at student care today !
havent done relief for so long .
'good' to see the many many kids again . lols .
well ,, when i reached hm my ears felt soo pleasantly cleared
from all the noises (screaming, shouting, protesting) .
i dun love kids but i was still kind to them . haas .
taught them maths & spellings (constantly testing , they just dun learn by <3>
& well ,, the education standard is seriously getting so much higher .
Pri6's work alr seems like wad i'd learn in my sec days .
i ought to feel lucky tt i dun belong to their generation .
haas . but doesn't mean i'm old !!!
& kids oh kids . wassup with the
'teacher he throw the pen at me!'
'teacher he take my thing!'
'teacher tell the principal he naughty!'
LMAO .
i seriously hope i didn't behave like this when i was young ,
doubt i was a protest/complain/sabo queen at tt age at all .
when i hear this i just wna burst out laughing .
i'd still have to maintain my stern image & say ,
'SHUT UP ! DO UR WORK ! IF I SEE TT ONCE MORE IT GOES RIGHT INTO THE BIN!'
muahaahaahaas .
you think they'd be afraid ? those lil devils .
yea , for a sec ! but well as long as they complete their work & dun create trouble .
i dun really wna stop them from doing wad they wna , life's stress enough at such age .
but sometimes it still feels not too bad to be surrounded by a bunch of kids .
esp the way they behave when they r soooo fascinated with my barbie phone ! haas .
time pass super fast having to entertain ten over kids at a time . (:

& well ,, CEC test is officially over ! 3 mre papers comin' up .
GREAT . can't wait for my PARTY TIME !
no comments for the paper . good enough to pass .
can't be bothered alr . sigh .

& on sat , vday ,,
went NIGHT SAFARI with baby .
super fun ! lols . felt like a child agn .
sitting on the tram 'oohing' & 'wowing' at the animals .
haas . I WANT TO VISIT THE ZOOOOOOOOOO !!!
no flash allowed so no pics taken !
SIGHHHHHHH ! wasted yea . & i seriously need a DCAMERA soon !

God of Fortune ! why did you neglect me ?! ):
come to me soon . i LOVE you SOOOOO !

CHEERS =DD

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HAPPY NINTEENTH BIRTHDAY WENBIN !

guys and i gave wb a bday surprise last night .
(me , wes , kenneth & raymond.)
right at 12 midnight , 13feb'09 . haas .
super funny . & fun .
he was soundly asleep when we went to his hse w/o him knowing
& started setting up the 19 sticks of prank candles .
you blow it out & it relights by itself .
disturbed him from sleep & he woke up all groggy & shocked .
LOLS !
& he sure had a hard time blowing out the candles
all of it just gradually melted n everyone had to help blow it off tgt .
took some pics tts with baby .
so upload when there's a chance to .

skipped the last day of school !
insomnia . didn't slp the whole night .
so i was ready for sch super early today
but eventually didn't turn up .
had breakfast with mummy at coffeebean
then drove with aunt & mummy first to takashimaya to collect skincare products ,
peninsula to exchange shoes for cous, gombak mac for lunch,
fetched baby lucius from child care & off to loyang temple .
this famous 'Dua Pei Gong' temple . long time since i went to pray .
haas . round & round the whole day w/o slp .
returned hm & only slept for 2 hrs ,
constantly waking up . its shitty .

& the whole morning my hands barely left my phone .
receiving smses/calls regarding natas fair '09
sending out confirmation smses helping to coordinate the crews i brought in .
confirmations aft confirmations queries aft queries . phew !
by the time all was done my batt went dead .
lucky i bought my extra fone out . haas .
now i truly understand all the hassle & efforts needed with coordinating .
thou i did get pissed , i still enjoyed it . tts wad i like , feeling of being truly involved .
thanks guys for not giving me a hard time & screwing things up .
pls do maintain things like this okay , everyone 'll be glad for sure .
& those last few names hopefully you're wanted , wud inform by mon . (:
& economy's really bad guys , bear with it be thankful .
finally close to done .

mon's my exam & i can't wait for the exams to be OVER !
haven started studying . guess i'd wait till sunday , right, last min .
sinful me to do that . but i'd do a thorough revision for sure .
haas . gotta finish up my bits of data entry work first .
in need of some booooozeeeeee !
shall make myself a nice drink . (;

(happy vday tmr !)
CIAOS !

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CINDY HAS GOT HER BARBIE HANDPHONE ! =DD

BIG THANK YOU to baby love .
haas . & tts my valentine's prez .
its super duper cute & just like a cosmetic box .
(looks like 'poly pocket' too !)
my frens didn't realise that was a phone !
LOLS .
its a limited BARBIE phone .
so you probably won't see much of it in s'pore .
& yes its M.I.C so , dun expect to use it for a long time .
sorta having fun with it . haas .
just dun explode on me . xx: geez .
ooh well ,, i'd upload he pics of my cutesy fone .
girls ,, i've lobangs for it , you think you wna one , leave me a msg . (:
and yea ,, now that i've got BARBIE , i'm intending to get the LG PRADA asap !
its just super chic , nice one LG's got .
esp now that singtel has got the free prada watch as a gift .
oh my ,, come to me soon baby . lols !

look at my cutesy ! & cutesy packaging !
(normally its in pink but mine's black !)





loving it ! ((:


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second day of second week of FEB .

blogging at hm when i shd be having lectures now .
whatever . dread school . bored !
a clap for arrival of wed .
i like wed , middle of the week (weekends coming !)
beginning to look forward to weekends more .
haas . WHY ?
may be 'cos sch's ending ! x:
oh right .

recently have always beeen feeling tired & restless .
i could do with few hrs of slp a day in the past , not anymore .
can hardly wake up on time ,
feeling tired 'thou i slept like 10+ hrs .
zomg .
guess my irregular sleeping habits cocked up everything .
o.O''

ecology test & business finance quiz tmr .
pls CINDY , start your revision ! .o''
sigh , guess i might pon the whole week of lessons .
its getting all too shitty .
& my cab fares are amounting up like ?
i could get the coach bag i've been eyeing on alr .

looking forward to weekends once again , (:

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sometimes i wish , i had small & simple dreams .
not big dreams that 'd make me worry so much bout now & the future .
i envy young ladies who aren't as ambitious .
who have simple concept of how a happy life could meant .
i've seen & heard from my friends , they think ,
graduating with a diploma , get an office job ,
getting married , have kids , start a family .
simple & definitely able to realised their dreams .

i never wanted just an ordinary job & graduating with a diploma cert .
working in the field i studied ? NO !
i want to work in fields of my interest .
realised the big dream i had since i was independent .
carrying with me the passion tt burns .
the enjoyment of it , tts wad makes me happy .
i've tried so hard , for 5 years , worked so hard .
was i ever near ? maybe i'd missed out chances , i'd nv know .
but still all the hard works tt's seen no results .
its starting to lead me feeling despair , helpless .
why'd i even choose to be so independent by myself ?
shouldering the responsibilities of my own life .
stubborn ; thats me .
refusing to give up being ambitious ,
refusing to give up my dreams ,
refusing to be just the ordinary lady .

family & kids ? nah .
i don't need commitments & obligations to tie me down deadly .
well , supposedly not in the near 10 years to come .
having a family i've to commit to wholeheartedly .
playing the role of a goody wife and greaty mummy ?
i can nv imagine having to spend time in the middle of the night
entertaining a ' wah wah ' baby . zomg .
i'd rather be partying like nobody's business till dawn .
may be i'd develop a diff thinking when i have one .
but right now its definitely outta my list !
its an even heavier responsibility & price to pay .
so MUMMYS i respect all the good mummys .
thats one thing i can't possibly settle down as .
& not one of my so called happiness .
thou friends told me having a home with a family is the most impt in life ,
aft i told them nothing is as impt as money is in life .

no matter how much conflicts monetary issues is gna lead to .
i don't give a damn , thats my bloody view & my stand .
at least there's others that share my views .
before 30 & i wna be up the ladder of success .
i want it & i'd make it big .
nothing against my morals nor principals .
i don't believe i can't do it all by myself .
yea right , i'm hell materialistic .
so wad ? i'm only being practical .

money makes the world goes round .

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yet another challenge . (:

KOMBANWA !

this morning ;
shoot at roberstson quay .
two hours straight .
i'm sure there shd be like a 100 pics .
lols . tiring !
but yet, another valuable lesson .
& the photos looks good too .
one of the most daring ones .
guess thats max for me . haas .
also , thanks to the nicee photographers ,
larry & alfie .
had been working with larry & yea , he's great !
had been helping me a lot all da way .
very much appreciated . (:

spent the rest of my afternoon doing up my blog !
TAADAA !
i know it seems & is probably simple to most .
but as a PC idiot , i'm proud of myself .
LOLS ! YAY ! super duper happy . XD
credits to myself . LOLS .
school at 11 tmr . last week alr .
means exams round the corner .
can't wait for it to be over .
& it'll be endless partying for me .

CINDY ♥ endless music, liquor & nicotin !

off drinking at club on fri !
never enough of fun .
haas .
like i'm turning alcoholic , smokaholic , clubberholic soon .
ooh well . who cares . life's for you to enjoy to the fullest !
soo ,, put all the worries aside .
CHEERS !

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signedoff ,,

zomg .
& finally its FRIDAY !
yea right . i ought t be in bed now .
& i just finished rushing off my business finance report
plus my environmental health report .
gna just tidy up the last bits in sch tmr .
a super busy week again !
with five presentations in a row . o.O
not including certain reports & reflections to be done .
and finally i've completed it & i've organised my time better this time round .
noo more biggy awful stress periods tt makes me all
groggy & grumpy & moodless & weird & irratably irritated .
LOLS !
oh well ,, credits to my baby love too .
haas . he helped with my reflection & pics taking of my EH .
thanks love , i'd time for you this time round ! HAAS !
exams are coming & i just wna yell : OMFG !!!
bless me . xx:
2 weeks , i could do it yea ? lols .

and oh right !
its the end of CATS n S&W today .
shit ,, i'd really be missing it all .
had nice friendly cats mates & we never had conflicts .
unlike last sem , -.-
& dance sport class !
i'm always niam-ing that i wna learn dancing and nv really did anything .
lols . then i somehow gt into dance sport as one of my modules ,
okay , unwillingly at first but now ,
i simply loved it ! omg .
why isn't there s&w for all 3 yrs . lols .
i'm gna miss my cats teacher (nice & patient! smile& gave me attendance for being an hr late!)
LOLS ! XD
i'm gna miss my cats mates . (all nice peeps(:)
i'm gna miss my dance sport instructor! (always humourous! hurhur!)
i'm gna miss my dance sport mates . (aft tday's progressive chacha tt i really did interact w all . lols !)
& i'm gna miss not having the chance to step on some arrogant bastard's foot !!!
wahaas . i'm not being devilish here thou .

okay , time for bed .
pls dun let me dream of rats, rats, & more rats again .
i wna have a proper sleep !
nights peeps ! (:

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CONGRATS to ms toh !
received her wedding invitation yest morning .
thou we'd known bout the news earlier on .
feel really happy to be invited .
to witness this impt moment of a major decision in her life .
wishing her & her other half everlasting love . (:

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speaking of decisions .
decisions in life often leaves me in a dilemma .
i seriously dread having to make decisions .
having to make choices .
i know i shdn't be greedy nor selfish ,
sometimes just why can't i have it all .
why shd i be forced to say 'no' to
something else that i'd hate to give up on too ?
its really hard & i'm really bad at it .

its MONDAY , 02 FEB 09 now .
exactly a week ago was just first day of CNY .
isn't it fast tt CNY's alr half over now .
oh my . i seriously wish to return to the exact a week ago .
even thou i'd still get back to now .
it doesn't matter if i get to enjoy once more .
thou its impossible , i'd still dream of it to happen .

similarly , there may 've been many things in life which
you'd wish could be in the way you wna thou you know
its impossible to allow things to continue hanging on in such a way .
wad had been ur decision ?
start hitting back into reality & forget bout illusions ?
continue being selfish in wanting things to work in your way ?
either of it , you wouldn't feel exactly happy i supposed.
pricked you so hard you wept .
can't stop the big fat tears from flowing out .
& str away you start to regret .
you wished you had a chance to change ur mind now .
could i say its all too late ?
everything's changed from the moment you tot you made up ur mind .
are all the assumptions true ?
life's always complicating even if it involved prob the size of a nut .

anyway ,,
i saw this on my cous's blog & i tot i must really share it .
in my opinion ,, its indeed so true .

"You meet a person in one second
You got to know a person in one minute
You develop a liking for a person in one hour
You fall in love with a person in one day
If fate dosen't allow two people to be together
You will need one lifetime to forget the person"

its so saddening to read this .
why shdn't fate be in one's control
instead of the other way round ?
i wonder too ,
sometimes you just don't wna certain things to be over like this .
POOF !

SONGforMOOD :
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