so tell me all about being responsible
being a matured adult
being a respectable figure .

i've seen the worst example for the whole of my life .
what the fuck is with the behaviour .
i've finally exploded with rage .
dun even bother talking to me about 'respect' anymore .
even you youself dun fucking hv the tiniest clue bout it .
i hate those who inflict pain & harm upon my loved ones .
fuck you all just fucking wait for the day God punish you .
K-A-R-M-A . you know whats tt ? son of a bitch .
how i wish i could just pierce thru ur heart with one move .
i wna see you suffer, look at you bleed & beg like a dog .
oh no . you r not even fit to be compared to a dog .
thats an insult to dogs for they are such humane animals .
you are worse than a beast . the kind tt ought to be banished to hell forever .

bastards assholes bloody cheap males like you shdnt even exist .
how fucking old are you alr tt you need an eighteen yr old to lecture you ?
pray hard that you dun ever let me see you out on the streets .
if i ever hv this chance, i'd make you see & feel hell . exactly, i promise.
fuck you all . motherfuckers .

updates .
holidays hv made me an even lazier person .
lool . at times i dun even feel like stepping outta my hse .
so couple of updates . mostly of my work last few days .

anw ,, just back from breakfast with baby .
haas . like how long since we had breakfast .
its always dinner most of the time since our day & night
were totally switched over once the hols started .
woke up automatically at 7+ am with the sun scorching hot .
the next moment, just started pouring! .-''
the weather nowadays is really horrible & unpredictable .

had driving lesson yest & my instructor was also talking bout this .
unpredictable weather + wad seems like the time is passing by at an increasing speed .
hmm well . sometimes i do feel it tt way as the years go by .
& he was saying its getting nearer to d end of the world . haa .
i choose to just laugh it off . d ol' word: unpredictable .

sunday, work @ post natas fair .
yet another fun day . esp towards the end of it .
when i went over to the playground area & played with the kids .
okay . now i like kids a lil better . they were sooo much fun thr !
fancy an almost 2o yr old lady being wild with the kids .
they were just surprisingly mre disciplined than i tot .
& they did just made my day . i just felt happy having fun with them .
genuinely happy from my heart. for tt moment i had no worries, no troubles. (:
listening & watching the innocent souls, i just felt so young & carefree agn .
& there were a pair of Japanese brothers who were so cute !
i just repeatedly told them: ' anata kawaii neh ! '
& we were kinda bugging them to teach us Jap . haas !
really smart kids from the way they were able to express themselves .
aww . i miss them now . ):
so the day ends with smiles&goodbyes, friend-kisses (:

saturday, work at pavillion .
oh well . i'd say its the worst unsuccessful club event i've ever seen .
lol . seriously pathetic with complaints tt its bored . i agree .
mostly filled with kids , of course booreed .
publicity & location problem i supposed .
wasnt easy to find & i ended up taking a cab that friggin cost me CBD charges too .
zomg . & sale of alcoholic drinks was really bad .
gratitude to those that bought ! at least i could earn some comm .
& nice guy that bought me that last tequila shot so i
cd happily pack up & go hm earlier ! haas .

i've relaxed soo soo much . & i've discarded soooo much senseless issues off my mind .
those stuffs are classified as 'bo liao' (boring/pointless) to me now .
why did i even bother to waste soo much time to bother/worry bout it ?
thinking back i find it & myself super hilarious ! lmao man .
'nothing's seriously worth my attention.'
i know whats worth & whats not .
so dun judge it yourself, dun act all pathetic & think tt you are a victim .
because you are just insecure w a low self esteem
& you know you r just so not worth it .
i wna live my days with a clear conscience & steer clear of trouble .
i like it this way now that i seriously dun see a need
to give a damn bout much of anything .

i am happily enjoying every min, sec now . are you ? (:


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CINDY seriously, friggin', screwed her exams !
good game man ! .-''

it doesn't really matter anymore .
when you've found a certain direction in life .
some things/results just doesn't affect you as much anymore .
I JUST HATE THE IDEA THAT I HV TO FACE TWO HORRENDOUS SOUL NEXT SEM!

1. THAT LAOOOOOO WOMAN! (yes, agn, unfortunately. lol)
2. THAT EEEEEE EEEEE EEEEE! ('long time no seeeeeeeeee')

wahaas ! okay . all the above bullshit is nt the point !
here's what i really wna say . =DD

CLUB EVENT (underage& LEGALage segments)
@ the PAVILLION @ far east square (near raffles place mrt stn)
on 21 MAR'09 SATURDAY from 9pm t0 5am !

I WOULD BE IN CHARGE OF SALES OF THE TEQUILA SHOTS, SO DEARIES!
YOU GOTTA' CASH TO FLOW?! COME HAVE FUN & GIMME TT SUPPORT! ;D

FUN OR NOT ? THATS FOR YOU TO FIND OUT!
door sale tix @ $25 w a complimentary drink!!!
gimme a call before 10pm tonight i may be able to get tix @$20 for ya frenzies .

ITS TIME TO PARTY HONS ! ;DDD

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HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY, DEAREST XINRU ! (:

*shall update more on d celebration agn .
ciaos -

07 MARCH 2009 .

a day worth of meaningful event .
this day where we come tgt to witness the holy matrimony of ms toh & mr isaac koh. (:
from the moment on, our beloved ms toh is officially mrs koh .
sincerely thank her for inviting us (w edmund&amanda)
to probably the most important day of her life, her wedding . (:
it was held at four seasons hotel where we had d lunch reception .
& having the vows & exchange of rings .
definitely felt happy & blessed for them .
where two person dearly attached to one another, having come a long way ,
progress to another new phase in their love, their live .
definitely was a holy event with praise & worship to God .
thanking God for bringing two wonderful pple tgt as one .
thou i'm not an official believer in God , i could understand & feel the way they do .
& i strongly believe in 'em all .

thinking back from the day we met ms toh,
it had been almost ten years .
& was alr twelve years back since i attended sch in SAPS .
met some of the teachers that previouly taught us , at least they remembered our faces .
ms lim managed to call out my name aft much thought thou . haas .
& congratulations to ms lim k.l. too ! who's getting married in May (:

wishing all of them ,
A HAPPY & BLESSED MARRIAGE !

well , had been long since we, honeybuns met up .
i had look forward to it as another fresh start of how honeybuns were .
i supposed everyone had grown perhaps even too much .
everyday things are changing , rapidly even .
everyone had moved on & adapted to a diff lifestyle .
we dun come tgt as much as we had .
i hope it wouldn't be too long before we come tgt agn .
not because of any major event but because we still miss & love each other as much .
its an affinity & i hope it last just like any love shd .
all shd learn to cherish whats true , good & hard to come by .
love you all , from my heart i truly do .

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