MONDAY - 25 JUNE 2007
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first day of school !
boohoo .
and i was late for school .
wth ,, thats very suei norhhs .
its really a busy start .
teachers constantly reminding us tt this is a very short and packed term .
yea ,, mock exam alr started today .-''
and it was english paper 2 .
and i've gt a feeling tt i'm gna flunk it .
wasnt dat focus on doing the test today .
no idea why . just hv no mood to do .
sighs . hate stressful days . xc
dun wna talk bout it anymore .
anyways ,, i just finish watching 'wei xiao pasta' .
OMG , its really nice .
a very hilarious and touching show .
especially the ending .
the confrontation part and the proposing scene is way TOO ROMANTIC !
especially dat part with the bouquet of eleven roses representing "一生一世只爱你一个" .
thats really 'xing fu' norhhs .
suits the whole story well .
if only such a guy like him exist in the real world la .
but of course its just another fairytale .
how disappointing .
and sad to say that such guy is really near extinction .
huhs . nice happy ending .
but i think its kinda short .
should have continued ,, seems like there's some unfinished scenes norhhs .
gino was really cool in that show la .
so SHUAI sias .
LOLS .
nicholas was good too .
high ratings for 'wei xiao pasta'
HUMOUROUS , TOUCHING & ROMANTIC !
should watch ! XD

ciaos ! =DD

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HAPPY GATHERING ! XD

weets !
happy happy !
it was fun having an outing to sentosa ((:
with dar,edmund,wenbin, sihua,yaochong,glenn&lihao .
its been ages since everyone hanged out altogether .
altho' it wasnt easy organising it but i supposed such meetups r worth the troubles ?
hopefully everyone did hv fun .
it was entertaining looking at the guys playing the frisbee .
and when they tried to get it dwn the tree as it gt stucked .-''
havent been under the sun for such a long time like today .
was sun-tanning and luckily i'm nt very 'burnt' .
that hurts .
it wasnt a very sunny day anyway .
swam with ed n glenn and i realised i really hv a very weak stamina now .
went back real early today .
my first time leaving sentosa so early .
haas .
oohs ,,
school's reopening on mon .
time to study real hard alr .
when all the major exams are over .
its really time to enjoy . ((:
nth much to talk bout alr .
so ,, ciaos peeps !
XD

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i'm a fuckin'MESS!

somehow i think that i'm in a mess .
life , everything . its all a mess .
why are some things so hard for me .
all i ever wanted was simplicity .
why do i still fail time n again ,,
when i've put in my best effort .
in whatever i do ,,
whatever issues .
be it just work or life .
nothing ever seems to go right .
when i believe and trust that
everything will change for the better .
it always seems to just bring greater disappointment .
all these just makes me think ,,
whats the use of giving a 100%
when u dun even get back the least u deserve ?
i just feel so damn lost .
what should or can i do now ?
should i still preserve the faith i always had ?

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FRIDAY - 15 JUNE 2007
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oohs . its almost 12 am alr .
& i wna wish my BESTIE ,,
HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY EDMUND ! ((:
and a BIG THANKYOU too .
so nice of you to try ur best to stay up last nite to sms with me cos i was in a bad mood .
thou' you're at camp n it shd hv been a tiring day for ya .
appreciate that so much ((:
and of course i felt so much better after chatting with you .
HAAS .

anyways ,, i finally did my coursework again .
only managed to stay in school for like 3 hrs which is very short .
due to some dumb 'emergency' .
wad a day .
i was so sick !
only feeling much better now .
eew ,, i seriously hate being sick .
spoils everything , especially my mood . xc
weekend's here again .
one mre week of hols only huhs .
its a good thing sch's starting soon .
somehow i miss normal sch day .
WAHAAS XD

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WEDNESDAY-13 JUNE 2007
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WEETS !
finally i went k boxing today !
have been wanting to go for so long alr .
but it has always been postponed .
went with xinru and ah bee .
WAHAAS .
so much fun .
high as usual .
five plus hour of singing cn be really tiring .
especially for not singing for such a long time .
fortuitously ,, i din see much deterioration .
HAAS .
really gotta start exercising to train my stamina and shed some weight .
XD

two n a half wk of june hols hv alr passed .
sooo fast .
and i've been wasting so much time like almost a week since HELP programme ended .
how terrible .
better start my revision alr .
i've been saying that yea .
LOLS .
i'm going back to school for my coursework starting from tmr .
and so i mean every word i said .
HEES =DD
woohoo . HOLS r BORING !
slp early for sch tmr ((:
tatas .

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CAMPUS SUPERSTAR

TUESDAY - 12 JUNE 2007
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hols are so so boring to me .
i'd rather i'm having school .
won't be wasting so much time then .
anyways ,, went to watch 'campus superstar' live at mediacorp yest .
main reason to go there was to support my fren Amy .
just a little intro .
i got to know amy at the CSS auditions .
we went thru the first & second auditions together .
that was where i stopped while she continued the CSS journey .
i'd say i was quite impress with her .
she speaks so fluently & of course she's got a nice voice .
so last night , she was on stage singing 'qing ai de ni chem me bu zai shen bian'
guess being the first to perform made her feel really tense .
unfortunately , she got the lowest mark out of all the girls
and she wasn't sucessful in entering the next round .
i'd say it was really a pity .
however ,, we are still all young .
there'll still be loads of chances ahead isn't it .
never feel despair & nv give up ! especially on your dream ((:
its always a wonderful experience .
& wads most impt is the process and wad u've learnt yeas ?
so ,, CHEERS to amy . love ,, you've done great . (:

well ,, i was quite pissed at the start with the receptionist at mediacorp .
amy left the tickets at the reception for me to collect .
so when i approach the receptionist n talked to her in such a nice manner .
she just gave me that irritated and fuck up expressions and voice .
wad da hell is this man ?
she's so ill mannered la .
you r just a mediacorp RECEPTIONIST .
not a wadsoever artiste in there la .
even if you are , do artiste really deserve to be so stucked up ?
please show respect .
even if u r an elder if you dun show me the proper respect when i did shd i still treat ya with respect ?
wad i wish to point out is that i am a guest .
& as a guest i deserve a better attitude than that .
with that fcukup attitude of yours ,
u r giving me an impression that everyone in there behaves like this .
i feel so sad that they actually hired someone like you .
i just feel so DISGUSTED by you & ur attitude .

sometimes ,, some pple shd really reflect on themselves .
dun be too proud of yourself .
so wad if u are of affliations with some major comp or famous wadsoever .
you are still not the impt person yea ?
bottomline is every human deserves respect .
pls dun treat peeps witha fucking attitude as you like .
its RUDE .

even my frens was pissed with her la .
huhs .
enough said .
i did have an enjoyable day with xinru ,, chunhui & yiqi thou'
after CSS . we went for supper !
its been a long time since i had supper with my frens .
we ate till we were so full narhhs and all the food only cost us 20 bucks which was like damn cheap lorrs .
so worth it .
on the way home we just had so much FUN !
loads of laughters .
HAAS .
too much to say alr .
anyways ,, we did enjoy ourselves much ! XD

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A GOOD FREN IS HARD TO COME BY !

EDMUND ! so sorry i copied you . WAHAAS .
but i wna intro you too . XD
peepos !
he's EDMUND .
we are sure damn close !
as in we r BESTIES .
HAAS . he's my lovely BUDDY .
and a very very very good fren of mine .
since our first yr in sec sch we hv been together !
and time really passes .
its been five years .
he's someone whom i could pour my sorrows to .
share my laughter with .
someone whom i can trust ((:
we can talk bout anything .
yea . just any stuffs .
we do share the same interests .
we love SINGING ,, SHOPPING & BITCHING .
WAHAAS .
& we sure enjoy it .
its always nice hanging out with him .
i'll nv feel bored .
cos our 'outings' are always filled with loads of fun !
be it our impulsive shopping sessions
or slacking at mac for like hours chatting
there'll sure be endless laughters .
and yea ,, just went bugis with him .
we went to have lunch at this cafe which he intro .
oohs . food's nice and affordable .
then our shopping starts till we walked till we were tired .
HAAS .
then we were just slacking at mac chatting for hours .
its just so enjoyable to be out with my bestie .
but it was such a pity we didnt take the neoprints as planned .
next outing yeas . XD
we never have to be 'fake' or act infront of each other .
we treat each other in just that natural way .
with a true attitude .
we just know each other well enough .
understand each other much .
guess the truthfulness in us ,
is why we could preserve our strong friendship .
& i'm so looking forward to our sentosa trip ! XD

THANKS ed ,, for being my best fren too ((:
for coming to my rescue at times when i needed help desperately for my POA n MATHS .
its been a long way since sec sch .
i've seen ya strive hard for ur goals ,
gotten into ur dream course ,
getting on so well with life now ,
gotten into the ambassadors as you've wished !
i feel happy for ya !
altho' we couldn't graduate together but it hadn't affect us .
hopefully i'll acheive my goals too , like you did .
and be able to join ya soon !
LOVE YA FREN ! ((:

great frens r hard to come by ,
same ol' word ,, do CHERISH ((:

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i wish for more pleasant moments .

when everything seems to be in a mess .
how do we clear it ?
is it better to leave things aside ?
or to probe on it ?
i dun even wish for all of that .
it feels so damn AWFUL .
somehow i wished for the past .
ain't i silly ?
plain silly .
but at least those days were BEAUTIFUL .
aren't they .
i'm so tired , so restless , so moodless .
i dun even know what i shd do each day .
i just dun have the mood for everything .
all i wna is just peace .
close my eyes and have a good rest .
take a walk to distress myself .
at times when i feel that i'm losing myself , still ,
its the LOVE that keeps me going .

i'd still think of it and SMILE .
ILOVEYA .
LOADS #

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i hate those piercing pain .

THURSDAY - 07 JUNE 2007
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why do God create us in such a way ?
why do we know whats happiness and unhappiness ?
why couldn't we just feel happy and not the other way round ?
why couldn't we just feign ignorance to anguish and sadness ?
why can we feel the piercing pain in ur heart when you feel utterly upset and hurt ?
why do we have happy times and also unhappy moments ?
why doesn't blissful moments go on ?
why do tears flow when you feel downhearted ?
why do you know just how to smile when you r in a blithe spirit ?
why do we have such mixed feelings ?
why couldn't we just stick to a kind of feeling ?
why couldn't we choose the kind of feeling we want ?
why couldn't we always stay in the mood we wna ?
why life seems so beautiful and before you know it comes crumbling down again ?

these many WHYS . whats the ans to it ?
is that wad many of us wish to know too ?
as each day passes i feel much more towards life .
sometimes its just so fragile .
so unpredictable .
full of uncertainities .
which makes me mre afraid of living life with regrets .
if only we could predict wads gna happen nxt .
get prepared to face it .
would that be better ?
or do these unforeseen events tt'll happen
ensures that we live life mre eagerly ?
all i wna now in life is just peace and love .
pls keep all the excruciating pain away from me .
its all i ask for .
HOLD DEAR on ((:

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the complications ,, makes me ponder deeply .

WEDNESDAY - 06 JUNE 2007
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had a nice rest after chalet yest .
supposed to be fun .
somehow ,,
i just wasn't really very happy .
sighs .
life ,, life .
it just seem so complicating yea ?
at times you really feel that life is beautiful .
at other times you doubt so .
or rather shd i say just how complex can a human's mind be ?often ,, we'd take things for granted .
only realising it when you lose it .
some would strive to want it back again .
however ,, some just let it walk away .
are you the kind who wud give up so easily ?

for me ,, i'd cherish everything i have .
however at times ,,
i just ask myself .
am i asking for too much at times ?
perhaps i've had enough of wad i shd get
yet i still ask for more ?
i really wonder .
or is it self deceiveing ?
to keep me away from those tormenting thoughts .
i just detest my personality at times .
one who prefers initiative over asking .
thats just me and i seriously wonder WHY ?

time is passing by so fast .
i could hardly catch up .
there's no much time for me to make use of alr .
whatever it is ,,
i'm trying my very best to make sure my efforts pay off .
encouraging myself by telling myself
i can definitely do it ! i could acheive what i want !
thinking back ,, is that considered as encouraging ??
or just trying to preserve that faith in myself ??
in the psychological point of view ,,
that shd be seen as self hypnotism .
guess its not a bad way to encourage yourself
and allow yourself to work even harder yeas ?

alrights . felt better after letting the words out .
thou' without the clear meanings .
wads impt is just the main point isn't it ?

so ,, ciaos peeps !

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SUNDAY - 04 JUNE 2007
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BOO !
boring sunday !
woke up so so early for tution .
TIRED TIRED ! )):
i watched '200 pound beauty' again !
its just so so nice lorrs .
so so touching .
everytime i'd watch i'd cry .
plus the song 'star' .
its just fabulous .
i'm so so into that song now lorrs .
i really wonder how she sang it .
so near perfect .
ENVIOUS XD .
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found another version of romanized lyrics .
wonder which is right .
peeps peeps !
its really a wonderful show .
should gt the vcd to watch ! XD

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-STAR-

the wind knocks on the window,
over the room as small as me,
twinkling stars so beautiful,
filling the room with love.

don't feel hurt,
caressing my wound gently,
embracing me to sleep .

#too hurtful for my legs to walk
my eyes so blurry with tears
before love ,
never meant for me .

i'll keep on smiling.
dear moments with you
buried deep in my heart.

like those stars embroidered in my eyes,
i'll love you forever .

crawling to me like a dream,
my little star up high,
dazzling my eyes,
shining brightly,
falling on my shoulder.

don't be sad anymore,
holding on to my hands tightly,
caressing my wound,
it embraces me warmly.

#too hurtful for my legs to walk
my eyes so blurry with tears,
before love,
never meant for me.

i'll keep on smiling,
dear moments with you,
buried deep in my heart.

like those stars embroidered in my eyes,
i'll love you forever . . .

STAR - KIM AH JOONG (200 POUDS BEAUTY)
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the wind is shaking the windows,and over my small room,
the stars fill up the sky, shining brightly too much to count,
the stars reassure the tired me
they wipe away the many tears that are deep inside me
don’t be hurt too much.. they hug me tight and pamper me
and comfort me,telling me to go to sleep
though I’m exhausted to the point where I can’t walk
though my tears blur my vision
I’ll still smile in front of my love that I’m not able to get.
Even though our happy times were short, I’ll treasure it deep inside my heart
like those countless number of stars, forever . My dream is coming.
though it is unusual that my one star is bright
it is very bright, even blinding.. it comes down to my shoulderstop being so sad..
it holds my hand as it touches me and gives me a warm hug .
though I’m exhausted to the point where I can’t walk .
though my tears blur my vision,
I’ll still smile in front of my love that I’m not able to get
Even though our happy times were short, I’ll treasure it deep inside my heart .
like those countless number of stars, forever .
Only for today, I won’t cry though my eyes fill with tears .
I want to laugh like those stars,
Oh~ I want to cherish all my happy moments deep inside my heart.
Like those countless number of stars, forever . . .

`english translation of the song 'star' .
just found on some webbie .
it seems kinda phrase in broken english .
probably was a direct translation .
anyways ,, its a really nice song .
sounds sad yet its beautiful .
she sounds so great too .
she just brings out the right feel for the song .
it mkes you be so immersed in it .
at least it touches me .
i'd hv the urge to cry whenever i hear it .
if you truly listen to it with your heart
and allow yourself to enter the story .
loads of emotions would come gushing up .
to me ,, its just too beautiful .
hopefully everyone who hears it wud share the same views as me ((:

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